Kelley Harrell – Compassionate Knowing

June 30, 2014 | By | 2 Replies More
The Seer by Marie Mader

The Seer by Marie Mader

As a lifelong intuitive, I’m often asked how I came into “knowing.” The thing is, because I’ve not really known otherwise, I can’t answer that question. I don’t know.

In reality, my awareness was just always tuned to something more than the seen. I didn’t cause it to happen; it was naturally that way. In childhood, I experienced a deeper knowing, and it has never left. Likewise, I have never abandoned it.

Because of this awareness, I’ve always been keen to support that knowing in others. Many in New Age circles believe that only certain people are seers, intuitives, or empaths.  Having worked as a modern shaman with a diverse range of people for the last sixteen years, my observations have told me otherwise: we’re all born knowing. Through mentoring the Tribe of the Modern Mystic, I learned the first challenge isn’t to determine if we are intuitive, but how we will honor it.

We all have the ability to tap into deeper knowing. It isn’t a skill reserved for a select few, or magickal enlightenment revealed only to devout seekers. Sure, it comes more naturally to some people, just like any other skill. To narrow the focus further, it isn’t about who recognizes intuition and who doesn’t. Rather, it’s who can cope with how maintaining an active interaction with the unseen changes all of life.

Yes, I came in with an extra switch turned on, in terms of gleaning otherly insights. I don’t hesitate to add that I’ve devoted many years to learning to engage my sense of inner knowing in a way that’s compassionate for myself and others. In short, that means learning how to deal with what I learn, how not to personalize it, how to distinguish what’s mine, when to keep my mouth shut, and when to shout it from the rooftops. Everyone knows, but not everyone knows what to do with it. Discerning compassion makes all the difference in rooting insights into daily life healthily.

One of the biggest components of holding awareness compassionately is to honor it, to foster it, no matter what it speaks. That’s easy to do when it supports what we want. Or is it? For me, the greatest test of my intuition was when I got exactly what I wanted. After having several miscarriages, then getting a dazzling green light from the Multiverse that my twins would have a healthy, thriving birth, it was hard for me not to fall back on the habit of fear. My intuition affirmed that everything would be okay, yet I couldn’t sit comfortably with it. I worried, fretted, consulted the souls of the babies, constantly sought updates from my Spirit Allies. At every turn, they affirmed the peace I felt through every cell of my being. Sure enough, mother and babies were fine. That experience was enough to teach me that “knowing trumps all” is in the eye of the beholder.

What about when intuition doesn’t support what we want, when it indicates rough terrain ahead? What to do when the unseen of a dynamic seems ridiculous, repugnant, or frightening? Such situations challenge us to stand on something even stronger than inner knowing, which is divine unknowing—or faith.  Sometimes we have to step out of our own awareness and reach for something not just bigger or deeper, but fathomless. Regardless of how in tune with the Multiverse any of us are, we still have to let go sometimes, and just go with what is.

Above all, I’ve learned the ability to know doesn’t automatically grant coping skills for what is intuited. If anything, intuition clarifies very quickly the places in which mindfulness and creative problem-solving are needed. When we aren’t ready for what we see, or when we can’t re-arrange life to support what we see, spiritual crisis ensues. In that light, many exercise the choice not to know. It’s valid, and equally compassionate.

So much more is involved than mere knowing. Without question, my life is charmed. Everyone’s is. It isn’t the ability to connect with the unseen that blesses me, but respecting how I manifest that connection in my life.

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  1. Kerry Holjes says:

    “Sometimes we have to step out of our own awareness and reach for something not just bigger or deeper, but fathomless.”
    Kelley, this thought is so on target for me. I’ve always been “aware” of the fathomless swirling around me. Thank you for this essay on knowing, on connecting with our intuitive self. And you’re right, it’s not always pleasant accepting what intuition reveals, but that should never stop one’s quest for the connection.

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